maskara..

okay. whattaday. i cant seem not to enjoy this and my following days. but i have to pretend im fine. i have to wear my overused mask all over again ..

okay. just some thought for this day..

"People tell you to move on or find someone ‘better’ but its not that easy . How can you forget someone that gave you so much to remember. It hurts to hear someone to tell me that because they wouldn’t even tell you to keep trying that the last thing they would say. It sucks to sit next to someone you love and you guys are nothing less then friends now. Just that one day you hang out with them was the best day of your life and then you find a big smile on your face at the end of that day. You can’t hold them or hold their hand even though it fits so perfectly with yours and it feels so right.. because you guys aren’t together. Your typically ignoring how you feel because they said it ‘best’ you guys are friends. How would someone knows what best for you? They have no part in how you feel & what you want. I just want to say if you want something in life go for it. Don’t listen to anyone or let anything stop it. Keep trying even though it gets rough , things will get better eventually it always has to."

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ang hirap talaga ng buhay. ang gulo..

parang kelan lang. kamay mo ang hawak ko. mata mo ang tinitingnan ko. ikaw ang kayakap ko. ikaw ang kasama ko sa pagtawa. ikaw ang kasabay sa pagkain. ikaw ang kasama sa uwian. ikaw ang kasama sa iisang payong. ikaw ang kasama manood ng magagandang movies. ikaw ang nagpapangiti sakn. ikaw. sige. aaminin ko. ikaw ang lahat. ikaw ang bumubuo ng araw ko. ng linggo. ng buwan. pati ng mundo ko.

kung tutuusin.gusto kong lumuhod sayo. magmakaawa na manatili skn. pero ayokong gawn. kasi hndi tama. mas liligaya ka saknya, wala na akong magagawa.

gusto kong maging magkaibigan tayo pagkatpos nito. pero, alam kong may parte sayo na ayaw ang ideya na yon.

hayy.. ewan ko. malaking impact to sa buhay ko.

at kelangan na naman suotin ang maskarang pudpod at kumupas dahil sa luhang pilit na tinatago..

--Zzarweak.

okayy. so here i am facing our monitor, clueless about what should I blog today.

what happened today nga ba? okay. so today nakapasok ako ng school earlier than usual and i really don't know why. I think it is because I am totally pissed off that morning and it last until lunch time.

arghh.. so anywanys.. today is October 12 at bday ng aming guro sa Filipino na si Sir Oliver Borromeo. we had a simple party to celebrate his special day. nagkaron ng mga presentation. at syempre kainan.

after a happy happening. syempre may pang-balance jan. parang pang-himagas kung baga. para daw hindi maumay. wth, sino ba ang nauumay sa kasiyahan? well, ayun nagkaroon ng dalawang Long Test, calculus and org chem, hutaena pamatay.. :((

well. nairaos ko naman silang dalawa, :D

ayun. so naglaro ng vollryball sa baba saglit habang hinihintay si jai matapos sa praktis nila,

and nung natapos sila syempre hinatid ko si jai and umuwi na rin ako.

at ngayon ay nakasalampak na sa harap ng PC namen at walang maisip na gagawin.



SHIT. bipolar feeling again :): ....

--zzar..

uhh.. so yeah. here i am again. haha. i really have no idea what should i put in my next entry, well, while surfing i found this touching story. i found it good. hope you do too :D

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Boy: I broke up with her.

His Best Friend: What happened?

Boy: She’s just too much for me.

His Best Friend: What makes you say that? What did she do wrong?

Boy: Well, for one.. She only cared about her appearance. Always had to look good, always took forever to get dressed! So insecure..

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she wanted to keep your eyes locked on her? She wanted you to see that you have the prettiest girl under your sleeve and not think otherwise? I see..

Boy: Oh.. Well.. She’d often call me or text me asking where I am, who I’m with, telling me not to smoke, not to drink. She’s so clingy!

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she cares about your well being? Because she cares about you a lot? And her greatest fear is losing you. I see..

Boy: But.. Uhh.. Well, she’d always cry when I say something slightlymean. She can’t handle anything. She’s a crybaby!

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she has feelings? And because she just wanted to hear you say you love her? I see..

Boy: I.. Well! You know, she’d get jealous easily. I could barely talk to other girls! She’s so annoying! I had to hide it from her so she wouldn’t bitch about it.

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she just wanted you to commit to her? She thought you were faithful, but you lied so she could find out later and hurt even more? She just wanted the guy she loves the most to love only her. I see..

Boy: Well, she..

His Best Friend: You broke up with her because she’s good for you? She just wanted the best for you? She’s broken now because you were selfish. Are you proud?

Boy: I broke her heart.. Because I couldn’t see what was happening.. What happened to me?

His Best Friend: You lost the girl that loved you like no one else could. You see? You didn’t want her when all she ever wanted was you. THAT’S what happened.

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Think about it, when she’s too much for you.. She just wants the bestfor you. Because to her YOU’RE the best. If you don’t like something, talk to her about it. You mean so much to her. Don’t just give up. Don’t just leave because you want the easy way out. Ya’ Dig?

10/10/10

okay. what with this day?

i don't want to be called kill joy for some person but actually 10/10/10 is just a mere normal day. just like our everyday life.

what did I get today? i grew a day older.

my point is. 10/10/10 is not that special. we can make other days special too. and it is possible to make every day of our life damn so special.

for me.spending my day with someone special to me is enough. far too enough. like what i did yesterday. it is more special than today, of course it is with the fact that i'm not with her today. and when i say her, its Jai. :))

haha. okay here is the list of some things that definitely can make my day special :D

> laughing with your friends like there is no tomorrow
> having a hot choco or coffee with your dearest friend.
> spending more than an hour just to talk someone you really missed when you got home
> accompanying someone special from school to her house just to make sure she is safe
> pissing someone and laugh at their reaction and how they cursed you :D
> having a late-night conversation on phone
> sleeping (yeap, believe me :D)
> her smile (the greatest *melts*)
> laughing while the teacher is serious with his or her lesson
> and spending more than half of my day with her.
> and more of her :">

when i say her, its JAI :D

haha. sheez.. okay. thats enough for this entry. i can already feel its cheesy-ness

oh yeah don't forget, tommorow is 10/11/10 and it only happens every 1000 years XD

kbye. -ZzarWeak xD

Random :D

ohh yeah. so here i am. as usual bored :D. walang magawa. yung facebook ngayon wala ng thrill. konti lang magandang apps. hayy..

well. today was a normal day. walang espesyal na nangyari naman. haha. puro pc lang ang gnwa.

okay. wala lang ito. kabaliwan lang. ewan para masabi lang na nag-post ako ng something 'bout my day

this..is..the...end.. pero may next blog pa ako tonight :D

kbye- ZzarWeakxD

Wondering..

hmm. sadyang maraming bagay ang nangyayari sa mundo. minsan gugulatin ka ng mga ito, parang kidlat. minsan naman dahan-dahan sila magparamdam, parang kanser. pero nasa tao pa rin na nagdadala nyan e. tama ba ako doon??

may mga araw na napakasaya mo. parang mamamatay ka na sa saya. may araw naman na parang gusto mo isumpa ang lahat ng makakasalubong mo. may mga araw na gusto mo manahimik ka lang sa isang sulok. minsan akala mo lahat ng nakakasalubong mo kalahi ni kokey. oo lalo na kapag naka-shabu ka.

syempre. anjan yung mga nagmamagaling na sasabihin "mas malala yung nararanasan ko kesa sayo". hell, kala nyo nakaka-comfort? hindi! oo nga mas malala nga yang nararanasan mo PARA SA'YO. sadyang hndi pare-parehas ang standard ng tao sa mundo. maaring mababaw sa kanya at malalim sayo. kaya minsan yung mga nagmamagandang loob napapasama din. dahil na rin dun.

may mga araw din na akala isandaang itim na pusa ang nakasalubong mo at saksakan ka ng malas. yung mga situation na akala mo ikaw na ang pinagsarhan ni swerte ng pinto. yung mga tipong nwalan ka na nga baon kase nalaglag sa jeep, tapos nangutang ka tapos ninakaw yung inutang mo. alam mo yun? ako kasi hindi..

may mga situation din na akala mo sobrang wala ka ng magagawa, yung akala mo ikaw na talunan. yung mga tipong tumatama na yung hinala mo. well. magiba na ang magiba. alam mo yung pakiramdam ng suka na nilagyan ng kalamansi. parng sinasabi na "hindi pa sapat ang asim mo, kelangan pa dagdagan", pasalamat ka nga lang hindi kili-kili yung idinagdag eh

hmm. bakit nga ba may mga taong bitter? ewan ko din eh. ako din naman nakakaramdam ng bitterness. normal lang siguro yun. okay lang naman maging bitter di ba? lalo na kapag may katwiran. kaso pag naging bitter ka sa isang tao dahil gusto mo lang o nakikiuso ka lang kasi lahat ng kabarkada mo may taong kina-bi-bitter-an, aba eh kung isampal ko kaya sayo tong amapalayang ito??

pride vs. love vs. relationship. tatlong makapangyarihang salita. akala mo lason na kapag dumaloy sa g\dugo mo eh kayang tunawin mga lamang-loob mo. pride. lahat ng tao meron nito. merong malalim na pride, mababaw na pride, maprinsipyong pride, mahiyaing pride, pride chicken, at pride na bareta. meron naman maidudulot na maganda ang pride. pero least lang ang good effect nya sa isang healthy relationship. limang letra lang yang pride na yan pero dumudurog ng mga mahahabang salita tulad ng relationship at friendship. love. lahay ng tao kelangan nito. walang ni isang tao ang mag-e-exist pag walang love. ano nga ba ang love? hindi naman love ang nararamdaman mo kung ang dahilan mo eh dahil sa sexy sya at maganda, hanep tol, libog lang yan. ang love, merong sariling dahilan, pero ang dahilan na iyon ay hindi na dapat inaalam. alam mo kung bakit? kasi kung alam mo na yung reason kung bakit mo siya mahal, pag nawala yung reason na yun, at na-process na ng utak mo na kulang sa brainfood na wala ka ng dahilan para pa kumapit sa kanya, eh iiwan mo na sya. so LOVE WITHOUT REASON, and BE HAPPY WITHOUT :LIMITATION :D. relationship. sabi nila if may love, may relationship. what the hell, relationship lang yan. para san pa yan? pang-post sa facebook at twitter? once na love mo yung isang tao, at love ka rin nya, magkakaroon kagaf kayo ng mutual link sa isa't isa. Automatic na yun. d na kailangang i-memorize.

bakit ko nga ba ginwa ang blog entry na to? wala lang. para merong pagsayangan ng oras. minsan kase kelangan talaga sayangin ang mga oras na hindi dapat sayangin sa bagay na hindi worth it pagsayangin ng oras. hutaena iba talaga ang puyat. mas malala sa marijuana at shabu. ohsha. baka kung ano pa masabi ko dito. :D

--ZzarWeak XD

Back to the Blogging World :3

okay. what the hell. second account ko sa blogspot. kung malas-malasin ka nga naman at nakalimutan mo ang password ng una mong account. anyways. move on :D

haha. so here i am. my first blog in my third blogsite. well, katamad na naman kasi mag-blog sa multiply. haha.

okay. what now? i really don't know. haha. just typing all those words that are popping in my mind. these words are like trapped in bubbles that my brain keep blowing and suddenly land in my monitor. haha. ohsige na ako na walang sense.

okay. let's start from the morning. okay. SERENDRA.MARKET.PEMBO.MEGAMALL.BAHAY. ohsiya ako na marming pinuntahan :D okay. masaya ako ngayong araw. as in. sobrang nasapawan ng good vibes mga posibleng dahilan ng bad vibes sa katawan ko.:D bakit ba?? :D

nanood ng movie today with jai. Legend of the Guardians; The Owl of Ga'hoole. it was good. ganda ng story. haha. owls are cute. haha.

so yun. before nanood eh dumaan muna kame ng jollibee. :D medyo irita naman pala kame kase ang bagal kumilos ng mga crew ng jollibee. tapos kumpulan pa sila kung kumilos. mas mabuti pa yung langgam eh maayos yung pagkilos e. hayss.

ayun. :D syempre as usual. hatid-hatid din. at nakauwi naman ako ng bahay ng maayos. :D

grabe. nagulat lang ako paguwi ko ng bahay may jollibee na naman. tinamad pala yung nanay ko magluto kaya nag-take-out na lang sa jollibee. haha. grabe. d naman masyado kumita yung jollibee sa akin ngayon :D

at sa ngayon, magka-chat kame sa YM. haha. wala lang. bakit ba. gusto ko i-share e.

ako: kumain kana?
siya: oo
ako: kinaen mo?
siya: pagkain
ako: anong pagkain?
siya: kinakain


haha. ohkay. sige na ikaw na nga magaling :D

haha.ohsige yan na muna first blog ko. short and non-sense:D libre lait tanggap ko XD.

kbye :D -Zzar