maskara..

okay. whattaday. i cant seem not to enjoy this and my following days. but i have to pretend im fine. i have to wear my overused mask all over again ..

okay. just some thought for this day..

"People tell you to move on or find someone ‘better’ but its not that easy . How can you forget someone that gave you so much to remember. It hurts to hear someone to tell me that because they wouldn’t even tell you to keep trying that the last thing they would say. It sucks to sit next to someone you love and you guys are nothing less then friends now. Just that one day you hang out with them was the best day of your life and then you find a big smile on your face at the end of that day. You can’t hold them or hold their hand even though it fits so perfectly with yours and it feels so right.. because you guys aren’t together. Your typically ignoring how you feel because they said it ‘best’ you guys are friends. How would someone knows what best for you? They have no part in how you feel & what you want. I just want to say if you want something in life go for it. Don’t listen to anyone or let anything stop it. Keep trying even though it gets rough , things will get better eventually it always has to."

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ang hirap talaga ng buhay. ang gulo..

parang kelan lang. kamay mo ang hawak ko. mata mo ang tinitingnan ko. ikaw ang kayakap ko. ikaw ang kasama ko sa pagtawa. ikaw ang kasabay sa pagkain. ikaw ang kasama sa uwian. ikaw ang kasama sa iisang payong. ikaw ang kasama manood ng magagandang movies. ikaw ang nagpapangiti sakn. ikaw. sige. aaminin ko. ikaw ang lahat. ikaw ang bumubuo ng araw ko. ng linggo. ng buwan. pati ng mundo ko.

kung tutuusin.gusto kong lumuhod sayo. magmakaawa na manatili skn. pero ayokong gawn. kasi hndi tama. mas liligaya ka saknya, wala na akong magagawa.

gusto kong maging magkaibigan tayo pagkatpos nito. pero, alam kong may parte sayo na ayaw ang ideya na yon.

hayy.. ewan ko. malaking impact to sa buhay ko.

at kelangan na naman suotin ang maskarang pudpod at kumupas dahil sa luhang pilit na tinatago..

--Zzarweak.